I used to live alone in a shack with tall
grass and trucks in the yard.
When I lost my lease,
Ara said there might be a room
in the house on Montgomery Street,
and so I
moved in with
Alice, Hannah, Sarah, Bianca, Kate, and Annie.
The house was close to the art school and the women’s college,
and stacked full of the
mismatched, unclaimed belongings of five or six roommate generations.
At first I hid in my room
and tried not to be noticed;
I was so conspicuously male,
and so out of proportion with the cats, curtains, and blankets.
I never had sisters. Everything
overwhelmed.
I was enchanted with every move, fascinated with every
gesture.
They cooked together, mixed teas and tinctures, dyed fabrics in the
backyard, designed costumes for children’s plays, wrote songs and poems, gave
each other late-night tattoos, smithed jewelry, and stitched leather. They read
tarot, talked aura, charted horoscopes, and parked their dirt bikes in the
basement.They smoked on the porch in their
underwear and wore whatever the
fuck they wanted.
The everyday physical, emotional, and
spiritual closeness completely flooded
me.The place
and the people and the pictures all started to bleed into on another.
The
paintings on the wall became our own poses, the drawings on your body
drip back
into the books on the wall.
The clutter made room for you and all of
your contradictions.
I couldn’t believe the caring touches, the open
hearts, the blushes of affection.
I never wanted to move out.